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Testing produces Scars

If one wonders why God test us, it is really easy to understand once one submits their heart to Him. See there is no testimony without the test. “Imony” is not a word and can’t be found by itself. “mony” means an action, state, or quality. We hear of the word ceremony and it is displayed in all types of different things, such as weddings, graduations, religious things, etc… We have to realize that each person’s testing depends on the choices they make. Once we drift far enough away from God the time comes for Him to break us. Once we begin to be broken then we can see that we need fixed. The longer we search for the answers in this world, the longer it takes for the test. I have been a stubborn man and in it all it created so many physical, mental, and spiritual scars. My name Terrell actually was a word used for stubborn people as which most Irish people are very stubborn. It derived from a French word but the first named Terrell was found in the county of Dublin, Ireland. Many times the greatest tool a believer has is the very thing we neglect the most. See we don’t have to justify anything God does, He takes care of that Himself. Yahweh wants us to testify to all the people we can the things He has done for us. The Testimony comes after the test and thus puts the “I” in it. I can tell of the mercy He has had on me and the Testimony I have received is from the test I endured giving me the action, state, and quality all in one, once I have submitted to God’s heart. God’s will is only seen after we seek His heart.

Revelation 12:11-“And they overcame him because of the blood of the Lamb and because of the word of their testimony, and they did not love their life even to death.

The words I write are a reflection of my testimony, and in this my Faith grows stronger with every person that God sees me tell. If people read words and put a face to them, then they tend to judge the one who wrote the words. It is not that all people do this, but for those who struggle with their own testimonies it is usually from a lack of confidence. The word confidence actually means “with faith” and without faith it is impossible to please Yahweh.

Hebrews 11:6- And without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who seek Him.

Our own worst enemy is ourselves as we talk ourselves out of the blessings God has for us. There is no such thing as karma, luck, or just happen stance. Either we are for God or against Him, and we will know where we stand depending on our own hearts. Jesus told us we will know a tree by the fruit it bares so what do you bare? Love? Hate? A judging heart? Fear?

We can’t begin to be honest with others if we can’t even be honest with ourselves and better yet with the God who sees all and knows all. Look at a loving father here on earth, and when he knows his child is on drugs or caught up in something they know is wrong. The child can paint as many pictures as they want but the father knows better. How much more do you think the Father in heaven knows! Without the test then then there is no action that leaves you in a state with any quality to build on. If I lean on my own understanding then it will surely bring a test every time, because I am subconsciously asking the creator to test me. When we go through life thinking we don’t need Him, He will show us we actually do and the testing will begin. The longer we try to fix it ourselves the longer the test. When the time comes and we see God for who he is then that is when our testimony can do all the work as we show others that we understand that Yahweh is sovereign. When we understand that Jesus is the way, and without this way we will never reach the Father, which in turn brings life, then the only real truth that ever existed can be revealed to us. My heart is so free in ways I never dreamed, and it was no man/woman ever that brought this. Plenty of people have helped trigger the work of God in me but in reality it was only when I chose to be brutally honest with myself and challenge that which I thought was to be truth in my life. In this I have found that God’s love was so much deeper than any wrath could ever be. If God’s love didn’t outweigh his wrath then why were we given 6,000 years to defy His will? Even after the Christ came the world has been quick to question God for who He really is. Answers don’t come by agreeing with people, they come by asking the questions that challenge what they are saying. This has to start with the individual or we will sit back and just take people at their word. There is only one word you can trust and that is God’s. In the reality of it all Jesus was the one to teach the world the true character of God, and that if we choose to believe then we will be given direct access to the Father. With that said though how many times have you denied the name of Jesus for fear of being ridiculed? Fear of what others think? Jesus told us all these words!

Matthew 10:33-“But whoever shall deny Me before men, I will also deny him before My Father who is in heaven.”

It is our weakness that God can show His strength but if we deny the one God ordained to be His Christ then we are shutting out the presence of the creator. Read the words of Peter in Acts chapter 2:14-24, and see the truth in God’s word. So many people are troubled by the lack of knowledge. The truth is in God’s word and Peter tells us of the preordained plan God had, and that Jesus was the fulfillment of that. The manifestation was to come in the Christ and Jesus was that Christ. I pray that in each one of your test you can find the strength to challenge what you think you know and seek the God that is the ultimate destination. Jesus told us these words as well!

John 5:44-“How can you believe, when you receive glory from one another, and you do not seek the glory that is from the one and only God?”

Even Jesus knew that God was his God why do we think otherwise? Jesus has scars that He did not deserve so the next time you think you have it bad just compare your scars to that of our savior’s. God has given me so much and in this He has taken my fears. I have been called to be a watchman on the wall. I understand that the theology of man is corrupted by evil and has made people believe that Jesus is God. That is not true He was the first begotten son of God and Jesus never claimed to be God. The apostles never taught of any trinity it has all been crafted after the deaths of the original ones sent out by the Christ. I have been taught by God, and I speak with God everyday which was and is only because I don’t deny my brother Jesus. The words of God and his son teach me and always have the last say in my life now. First begotten in the Latin means “First genes” and this applies to the fact that Jesus was the only man ever brought to life from the word manifested in the womb of a woman. Adam had life breathed into him and never saw a womb because his body was formed from the ground.

1 Corinthians 15:45-47: 45-So also it is written, “The first man Adam, Became A Living soul.” The last Adam became a life-giving spirit. 46-However, the spiritual is not the first, but the natural; then the spiritual. 47-The first man is from the earth, earthy; the second man is from heaven.

If one was to truly seek God’s heart then He will show you the truth through the words He gave us through His Faithful servants. Once Jesus was given the Lordship it was then that we call the man who was the Christ, Lord because He sits not on the throne, but at the right hand of the throne. So many are misled by false doctrines and they are too lazy to find truth for themselves. It was said that in the end days men would just want their ears tickled and that is what is happening all the while people who claim know God are just as confused and worried as the next person. Why do you think Jesus said this?

Mark 10:40-“But to sit on My right or on My left, this is not Mine to give, but it is for those for whom it has been prepared.”

Jesus is never spoken of to sit on a throne until He returns to earth and then He sits as the King of Kings here on the throne of the city of David. My prayer is that all who read these words will truly seek the God we all long for from within the very being within us. You can spend your days acting out some empty religious games or you can challenge yourself to a life that gives all the answers you could ever dream of, and then times that by infinite. The completion is only started here on earth as Jesus was the one who set the bar and until we shed this flesh at the end of our days, we are learning. I sponge up everything I can from whoever I can as I am addicted to the presence of this mighty God. Thanks to the savior this is possible so in it all He is my Rabboni. Jesus will be your master teacher if you let Him!

Luke 24:25-26: 25-And He said to them. “O foolish men and slow of heart to believe in all that the prophets have spoken! 26-Was it not necessary for the Christ to suffer these things and to enter into His glory?”

Time is only to hold ourselves accountable to God, what are you doing with yours?

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